A Bit of Normal Abnormalness
I’ve been going stir-crazy at home so I went out in Edinburgh on Saturday night. This is the first time I’ve had a proper night out in at-least 2 months. The bad news is I slipped up. I can’t remember the end of the party last night or how I got home. I broke a lot of my drinking rules.
I can actually pin-point the moment I lost control. I’d been drinking shandy (lager & lemonade) & talking a lot. But then in another bar I was offered a drink even though I already had one. So I caved and asked for a G & T. Hey presto I was double parking. A drink in each hand. After that the pace just quickened and I didn’t at any point think about stopping. I didn’t even count the number of drinks I’d had let alone the units.
Yet there are positives. I did actually follow a lot of rules. For example I refused all drinks in the early evening, all drinks before food, I drank shandy for the first few hours and I didn’t take a hair of the dog. And I did this all as if it was second nature!
So the next step is to make the rest of my rules habitual. I really need to how much I’m imbibing & how quickly. And crucially I need to be able to sit at a party during a pause in conversation and not reach for my bottle. To be uncomfortable without it acting as a trigger.
On another note. Did the alcohol actually enhance my evening? If there is a spectrum from sober to messy drunk I’d say booze ceases to be an enabler after the merry stage. About 3 pints. Up till then I was really enjoying the people & I think they were warming to me. I was actually being quite charming….shocker! After that they were still cool with me but I couldn’t think quick enough to amuse & entertain. Also I was chatting to this really intelligent interesting & attractive girl. Intelligence is just such a turn on for me. But while I did get a kiss I don’t have a phone number. And I would have if I’d been a bit more compus mentus at the party.
The crux is that I had a the best time when I was sober or merry & the rest was just ok.
