I almost didn’t notice the change…..
In my last post (nearly one year ago) I talked about how I had become a normal moderate drinker. I remain one now. Yet lately I’ve noticed a subtle change in my behaviour and I thought I should share it.
I seem to be unconsciously retreating even further from alcohol. Drinking water when others are drinking alcohol, turning down nights out when I’ve had a drink the day before. But this isn’t planned. It is an unconcious decision. I wonder if this is simply the next stage in my evolution away from my old ways. Perhaps I’ve come to enjoy the sobriety, the control, the positivity that moderation brings. Is it these things I now crave? Could this be a positive choice to get more of these things rather that a negative choice to deny myself alcohol. Or perhaps it is the appearance of a woman in my life that is fairly moderate herself and very entertaining outside a pub.
I also told someone about this entire journey the other day. The only person I’ve told other than the alcohol councillor. A sign of being in control and happy.
